Thursday, March 31, 2016

Paco's Whispers

It’s pretty well known that I love dogs. I must, or I wouldn’t have four. Which was a happy accident. Not intentional. And, sometimes overwhelming. But they’re ours now.

New puppy.

Last Memorial Day weekend I brought home a border collie puppy. Shelby. A new running partner. The old retriever just couldn’t keep up and I was missing my super smart, departed border collie, Paco. Also known as the World’s Greatest Dog.

There was something about this little puppy - how she jumped off the deck and ran right for me, a stranger, that reminded me of meeting him in the driveway of the farm where he came from.

She’s got an exaggerated head tilt, she does random things like drop her food from the bowl to the floor and then eat it, walks past a bowl full of water and checks to see if the lid to the toilet is open instead. Puts her paws up on the water dispenser on the fridge if the bowl is empty and the lid is down. Rolls in clover and freshly cut grass, inhaling like it’s the best experience of her life. All similar things to his behavior. It’s felt for some time that he’s around, whispering in her ear.

Running with her is fun but also challenging as just like him, she has to be the leader. Slightly in front. No matter how fast the pace. He loved to go on a run or a bike ride. He was also a thief. Of a cat burglar caliber. Jog by some kids playing, not notice anything in particular but a few minutes later realize he’s got a ball in his mouth - brazenly stolen in broad daylight.

The weather here has made a turn. We’ve gone from record rain to sunny and mid-seventies. Called for a nice evening run outside. A five miler. Just the right distance for both of us to finish before dinner.

At mile three I realized. She’d stolen a ball from a kid somewhere on the route. On the fifth year anniversary of Paco’s death.
He was there. Whispering in her ear.

Smart dogs go formal.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Crazy 8!

The Divine Miss M,

You're about to turn eight years old. Eight. I don't remember much about eight. Second grade. Mrs. Feeney. She taught me how to tell time. And, that sums up what I remember about being eight.

It's not a milestone, it's not exciting. It's just a solid even number.

I was so excited to meet you eight years ago. You have exceeded my expectations in every way. Other than your straight hair and brown eyes... Because, seriously, how did that happen? I'm sure you can tell me all about genomes and genetic makeup but I don't really have the time tonight.

I love your perspective on life. How you have everything figured out at the ripe old age of eight. How you literally don't care what anyone thinks. I hope you keep that forever. Because, I can tell you that it's a challenge - even at my age to keep that perspective.

Your vocabulary is astounding. To use words like: allegedly, obviously, ridiculous - all in the proper way is pretty impressive. Except when you're using them against me. I don't care for that so much.

I admire your quest for learning. You mentioned in passing that you are reading the encyclopedias - well, why not? I guess? Who doesn't? And, they came with the house so... read away. Have fun. Nerd.

You're an old soul, Madison. You've taught me so much. You're my favorite almost eight year old. You surprise me everyday - with your knowledge, your kindness, your spirituality and your love.

I'm so thankful that you chose me to be your mother. I'm not sure I'm worthy, but you saw something there that was at least interesting! Or a project. Either way, I'm glad to know you.

I would love to freeze time and spend more time with you as a silly little girl but I know that isn't very realistic. Instead, I'm going to focus on enjoying every minute of your growth.

I love you, Madi Big.

Love,

Mom